Tuesday, May 15, 2007

confident and paranoid

I've been feeling better. I've been going outside! Of my house! Also, after doing no exercise at all since starting stims in February, I'm finally back on the treadmill. I've only been walking (slowly, and only for 30 minutes at a time) and thinking about increasing because all seemed to be going so well.

Last night I had some lower back pain (exactly like how it felt just before a period) and it freaked me out. Up until now I've had an assortment of aches and pains, but none that have struck me as possibly abnormal. I thought I was all confident and secure and all that, but last night my paranoia and worry came back all over again. After sleeping, I feel somewhat better (much less woried.)

Today I'm resting.

3 comments:

cat, galloping said...

paranoia coming and going... sounds familiar. i hate how freakin' fragile i felt the whole time! don't worry about upping the exercise, just keep walking slowly when you feel up to it. do you have access to a pool?

Furrow said...

I get menstrual-type cramps and backaches all the time. Freaks me out every time, but so far, there haven't been any problems.

I'm starting water aerobics tonight. Can't wait! I'm usually not crazy about getting in the water, but lately, it's all I can think about.

Sarah said...

i think we may continue feeling these swings of confidence and worry for the duration. sounds like even the fertile preggers go through the same thing. yippee....