We're all fine. I just haven't been able to write. Part of that is literal - many things keep me from being able to have uninterrupted computer time. The other part - well, I just couldn't. And every time I sat down and tried to explain that to you I failed and then felt bad. So there it is. It may not make sense to you (especially since I'm giving up trying!) but I just couldn't write.
How the hell do I do that?
(there's a perfect example - I thought I was done, but I guess not.)
I was wondering how to approach this blog now. Part of me wants to just wrap up the birth story and then let that be the end. But so much happened after that (after all, my daughter is now three months old!) On the other hand, I have been sucking mightily as a blogger (and also as a friend and housekeeper and pretty much every other role that does not directly involve my breasts - wife included.) so I'm reluctant to promise to tell you all about anything.
Even as I was having trouble blogging, I knew there would be things about the early weeks (and, god, months) that I'd want to remember. There were days that I'd sit at Panera Bread with a little notebook, desperate to recall facts and record moments that had happened that week, but would still feel slightly fuzzy-headed about the whole thing. In the middle of it I didn't understand how it could all be a blur because I was so wrapped up in it, but now I can tell you that as clear as some things are, there are others that are already beginning to blend together in one newborn experience.
So I'm going to try, I think, to get it all down here.